Come to think of it, here goes nothing.
It's some sort of random note that I feel like writting.
It just makes every other post another late comer.


Like I say it a million times and everyone would have the same quote "Life is precious yet short." God may just take our lives in just seconds, you'll never know. Almost a week ago, we have lost a loving and caring mother to one of my highschool friends circle. Although, if I may say that he was my bestfriend in HighSchool, I never got the chance to greet her whenever I was around the neighbourhood or even know how well she was coping up in life. In my life, all it was just "keep moving on" sign. It's pretty hard for me to stop the cycle, because once I do, the routine fails to function, and everything is gone within seconds. Time flies and now, she's gone. Yet another one of my nightmares of death appears infront of my eyes.


The pain;
The suffering;
The tears;
The faints ...



Once I heard the news in the middle of the night, it made me recall the pain that I've gone through as a person who lost a very close friend, just like my sister. A role model with a figure. she was just the most perfect person I've ever met and been closed too. Her life was taken away with just triplets inside her big belly. People may want to know, the triplets are alive, but they're missing only one thing that they can never replace with - A mother's love.


Off the record, I've actually been through a lot within the past two weeks. Everything was just moving so fast, that I have to keep track and not turn back anymore. "Whatever happens, don't let it bring you down" - that's all I had in my mind, or I'm done swearing again. However, words that people tend to say to me indirectly/directly really hurts me although I've tried to keep myself calm. I really thank God that there are people who actually understands my situation, but they don't seem to understand my life either. With the workload, the dramas that has been circulating, I'm trying.


Highschool is suppose to be a place whereby people should mingle and mix around. Honestly, Highschool is a place, and the only best place to have all the fun you want. I'm not kidding. Putting aside each and everyone's differences, I'm sure that Highschool has left a mark in my soul. The laughters, sneaking outs, last but not least, the people whom we cherish and hold until today. I'm just having another sudden thought of highschool, flashbacks. It wasn't so bad after all.



Highschool Dramas , pfft. Oh come' on, you gotta be kidding me! You want me to post about this part? HAHA Well, it's how a person can actually handle it. This actually reminds me of Paris Hilton. All she wants was just someone who she can count on and keep up with her. I'm not gonna say that it's similar to my life, but I've been just so pack, basically the University and Hakka Lee. As I can remember, when I was back in Highschool, I had tons of classes, mostly performing arts and, maybe 35-40% of pure academic classes. I learnt piano, violin, Ballet & Latin. Besides that, I also had to attend parties back then. That's when everything just keeps running (: Basically, Highschool Dramas are nothing, really. To me, I know & I am a Drama Queen. rama just follow wherenver I go, it's as if I've been Deja Vu. BUT don't let that tear down your life just because of some small rumour and you've lost your friends along this rumour. These little things are just rumours to bring you down. Don't tell me you can't live your life! then whyam I sittng down on a comfy sofa and writting this down? (: There's definitely a mark there, but, I know you'll do great in life! :D



This really makes me miss HighSchool (!)


Then comes University. Argh, I can't give any advice on this. But, the only thing I can say is, cherish those who has been wth you through the years, which are your Highschool Mates. Just talked to a friend recently whom I've never been able to talk for about two years plus. When things just rush through, and started to pour out our memories back in Highschool - sweet&memorable&pathetic - reminds me of how much I use to be.
Reminds me of who I was and comparing from now and then.
It's really a major change.
Thank you friend (:


My only weakness now is that I still do not know how to make time for the people whom I love & opening up myself, taking risk & chances. I've been moving forward, there's just so many things to do now, but I can't seem to stop, it's driving me crazy. I'm working o it. Well, it's just one thing. Just one.



Track Playing: Howie Day // Collide


Much love & posted by,
Melissa,
we just collide perfectly.